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the doctors can't do anything for him, both his liver and kidneys are shut down. its inevitable. my family and i visited him last night and he didn't look as bad as he did the day before like my aunt said, but it was still bad. its scary


I know I’ve not been around in awhile, there’s reasons for that. First of all artwise I’m a bit sporadic. Sometimes I’ll be feeling like doing something, other times I just want to beat up demons for demon fangs in Okami. Golden Fury is the best attack ever. >.>

So anyways I’m not getting much art motivation. There are some pieces that will never get done, for various reasons. Maybe I’ll upload their progress if people are interested.

I have a few more recent things to upload, mostly kitsuke pictures and a few drawings. I did start again on that old LoZ fic- MAN how that has changed… I also started on my next cosplay- Midna with my own twist. I also have another pwnsome sewing project in mind which shall remain secret for now. Sewing seems to be the only thing keeping me sane these days, seriously. I feel like I’m going to explode.

The main reason for this journal is this: my uncle is really sick, and we’re (my immediate family and grandfather) traveling to New Jersey in a few hours to be with my (ex?)aunt and cousin. Its really complicated and I don’t even know the half of it. Apparently for a long time he’s been an alcoholic, and we had no idea. He’s in the hospital now, and the doctors, my aunt, and my mom don’t think it will end good. His liver is failing because of all that stupid alcohol. We found out about a year ago, after my grandmother passed away (his and my mom‘s mom). My uncle and aunt separated, and I think they’re officially divorced now. I don’t know how my cousin is taking this, but it’s probably not good. He was in a football accident about a year ago too, and was put in a body cast. He’s healed now, but that was a whole nother source of stress for him and my aunt.

Although my mom isn’t showing it much, I know she’s really torn up about it. This is her younger brother we’re talking about here, her only sibling. I haven’t seen my grandfather yet, but I know this is difficult for him too. My aunt was crying over the phone when she was telling my mom.

So we’re going there, I’ll probably be without internet, but maybe not, I don’t know.

I am sick and tired of a lot of crap and drama right now. There are stupid people in my life right now (when are there not?) and I’m just sick and tired of their drama crap. Newsflash: the world doesn’t revolve around you! You’re just an insignificant speck in the universe! I could go on forever about this crap but I can’t cause we’re leaving and I don’t have time to dwell on this crap people are forcing on me when I have all this other crap and more to sort out.